Dear You... (A Letter From The Heart)

(I wrote this back in 2009 based off of lyrics to multiple songs, but I still love it today. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.) Dear You, There are feelings in my heart I cant seem to explain, but I'll try, because I need you to know how I feel... I'm falling for you, quickly. The way you smile, the way you talk/ walk, your intelligence and spunk... they've captivated me. I'm surrounded by muses and cupids who meticulously chisle whimsical images of me and you in my head, and effortlessly it's all I think about everyday. Is it the way... you love me baby? or am I dreaming because I get so lonely... All I know is, I wanna run... SMASH INTO YOU. Cause you are the truth. You are so real, and I love the way that you make me feel, and if I am a reflection of you then I must be fly. I... I'm so in love. I've never been in love before, until... I saw your face, and watching stars without you... my soul cries. My heathen heart is full of pain. When we're apart, it's aching... You... you have a way of... I don't know... It's something that you do that just makes me wanna get close to you. What can I say but, I'm dangerously in love... In your arms I feel right at home, and that's the feeling i ain't felt before. If you're feeling the same way then let me know cause there's nothing worse than being in love alone... I am ready for love, but why are you hiding from me. Don't you know?! I'd quickly give my freedom to be held in your captivity??? I am ready for love... all of the joy and the pain, and all the time that it takes just to stay in your good grace. Lately I've been thinking maybe you're not ready for me. Maybe you think I need to learn maturity. They say watch what you ask for cuz you might receive, but if you ask me tomorrow I'll say the same thing! I AM READY FOR LOVE... but Im scared that Im ready for a love that's scared to love me... Its like we're at two places, and different paces. We might be in trouble but you won't meet me at the bridge... I say I love you, but you say that's kind, cuz you don't wanna get too close. You loved me crazy. I lost my mind... You're everything I've ever wanted... and all the things I didnt need, and this ain't who I wanna be. I feel like you're falling for me too, but will never tell me because you don't want it to become what it could be, because you've been there before, but baby... Let's not wait til the water runs dry. We need not watch our own lives pass us by. No... let's not wait til the water runs dry. Don't make the biggest of our lives... Let it become what it could be. Love me in your special way... what more can I say... LOVE ME NOW! Stay with me. Don't let me go, cuz I can't be without you. Stay with me, and hold me close, because I've built my world around you. And I don't wanna know what it's like without you... so stay with me. You don't have to stay forever. I'll take passion over pride. Full moon, high tides... We'll make this a long goodbye. Tomorrow we'll pick up the pieces, and try to mend our broken lives. Soft kisses, sweet lies. Let's make this a long goodbye... Love, My Heart

Moments Before The New Year...

It's the 2nd to last day of 2010, and Im soooo excited to get this year over with. 2010 has been such an emotional year for me. I've literally been through a million things and have found hope, lost hope, and even threw it away sometimes. But!!! I can lift my hands to God and thank him for keeping me another year. I leave 2010 with expectations of 2011 being a year that completely changes me for the better. I plan to conquer all problems in my life focusing around my health, and my finances. Lord willing, this should be feasible. This will be short, but tomorrow will the day where I write blogs all night. I didn't want this New Year's to be anything spontaneous or party-like. I want this New Year's to be simple, peaceful, happy. Im hoping to spend it with a certain someone, but whoever happens to be the person (people) I will spend it with, I will be happy. :-)

India.Arie "Complicated Melody"

Dear You,

This is the beginning of something beautiful, the beginning of something real. I always said I wanted to start a blog, but kept pushing it back. To be honest, I actually enjoy writing. I love using words to relate to people, to have people relate to me, and I want to make my writing better. So hopefully my blog will encourage this.

I hope that you enjoy everything I pour out to you. May your eyes paint images of what I'm thinking, how I'm feeling. I'm on this journey to re-discover me, and why not share the process with you. I mean, what good is all this knowledge if it only lives in my head.

Consider this my personal invitation into the alternate universe known as my imagination. This is where all the magic happens: the epiphanies, the dreams, the goals, the deeply hidden desires, and you've got VIP access. So enjoy! I promise to make this a site to see. =)

Sincerely,
Complic8melody